helpless

shinomori_misao8 opened her eyes at 10:16 PM on January 2, 2006.

"walang mali sa iyo. baka mas marami lang tama sa kanila."



"malay mo pag nakuha mo na un, magsasawa ka rin pla."



aray. kaboom. tagos sa puso yun, pare.

dagdag nalang dito. hindi ko na kaya magsulat. baka maging masyado nang emo.




salamat sa mga nakinig sa'kin ngayon. salamat at pinagtyagaan niyo ko. kahit papano nakatulong din kayo. haha. cheers to another year of friendship guys

2 critiqued.

pag-isipan nga natin..

shinomori_misao8 opened her eyes at 04:32 PM on January 6, 2006.

"Thinking is f*cking hard.

Therefore, when you think, you f*ck hard."

words of wisdom by red. yeah. such a smart ass. haha! inexpect ko na ang 7 sa group na'tin red, biruin mo naka-9 pa. so smart and konyo (haha! "assuming that the array [insert some java blah here] .... is instantiated!" )

so there.

sabaw utak ko dahil sa natsci2 exam kahapon. kahit madali, mahirap. iyon ang totoong mental block.

at pagdating naman sa casaa, dinidbdib ko ang comment ni kim.

"tumataba ka ah!"

wtf. kim, minsan-minsan na nga lang tayo nagkikita eh.

"compliment yun! 'diba, nagkakalaman-laman ka na."

ulul.

hahaha! ewan. labo ko.

"Sumisigaw, sumisigaw, baka sakaling
May nakikinig, naghihintay
Naghihintay sa iyong pag-ibig"

let's all be happy. (even though i know i'm not.)

dagdag:

You scored as English. You should be an English major! Your passion lies in writing and expressing yourself creatively, and you hate it when you are inhibited from doing so. Pursue that interest of yours! English 75% Theater 67% Philosophy 67% Dance 58% Journalism 58% Sociology 58% Psychology 58% Linguistics 50% Art 33% Anthropology 33% Chemistry 25% Engineering 25% Mathematics 25% Biology 17% What is your Perfect Major? (PLEASE RATE ME!!<3) created with QuizFarm.com

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wtf. and i'm in an engineering course.

english major? okay. fine. - haha, though i did consider taking broadcast communications (not an english course but close enough. haha) and had creative writing as a second choice. oh well, com sci na ko eh.

hearing: blood red summer - coheed and cambria

critique?

please make me smile.

shinomori_misao8 opened her eyes at 06:27 PM on January 9, 2006.

save me from all this drama.


edit:
walang improvement. emo sucks.

"may mga songs ka ba dyan na EMO repellant?" - vidadi. hahaha. i hear you.

feeling: down

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compatibility

shinomori_misao8 opened her eyes at 06:35 PM on January 9, 2006.

i can't please all browsers so bear with me. the layout looks nice on mine, ewan ko na sa inyo. (haha, i sound so mean. pero sorry. )

9 critiqued.

blah

shinomori_misao8 opened her eyes at 11:34 PM on January 13, 2006.

does anybody know what the derivative of f(x)=2sin³tcos²t is?

blah.

because of a darned cs12 ME which only about 2 groups (3 people each) were able to do, we weren't able to attend math. well, we could've gone to class but, we deemed it was already too late. we arrived at MB past 12noon already, and our class was supposed to be at 11:30. and we sit up front, why bother? nakakahiya pa biglang mag-barge in doon 'di ba?

of all the days to cut math, eto pa. friday the 13th talaga. failing natsci2 first long exam by one point (because of an answer i changed), not doing the ME... missed new lessons in math, hay. thanks to jen at kahit papano nakahabol ako. salamat sa pagtutor jen! pramis, pwede ka na magtutor. galing mo! haha! thanks!

i have a lot of things to do, MP in c (sungka, a little help, please?), short paper for philo, study, study, study. i can't take any more failures in my life (gademit. pati ba naman studies dagdag na sa problema...) 

and do you know what the topic for the short paper in philo is?

"If love is a madness, are you still willing to embrace it?"

are you? 

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boyband mania this week. started last tuesday with me and paolo during cs class (yes, it is THAT boring.) then mayee, then carl, then marie (kanina, haha infected kayo mga chong).

it's so noisy here. i hate the kids. too b*tchy (well, siguro yung isa lang. haha). argh.

well, that's that.

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i'm sooooo loving my desktop right now, thanks pao.

 

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uy, meron na uling "ang dating doon". hahaha. alien? alien. tawa nalang tayo.

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dundundundun.

shinomori_misao8 opened her eyes at 08:42 PM on January 15, 2006 and posted a favorite post.

i'll forever remember my horoscope for this day:
 

You're after someone who'll allow you to express yourself -- all your feelings, no matter how eccentric and unconventional they are. You'd better find them quickly, though, because if you try to spend time with the usual suspects now, it just won't work out. It might even get ugly -- and you know how you'd hate that. Hey, you've been feeling the need to break out of this rut for a good, long time. Here's your chance. Take it!.

oh c'mon. as if there are venues to take those "chances". YOU find ME someone new. haha.

 

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kanina, kausap ko sa ym si tricia... 

tcia: sa fotog club.. merong 2nd yr dun n parang kamukha m... ewan.. she just reminds me of u..
tcia: nung nsbi ko kay posadas..
tcia: ang layo daw
shinomori_misao8: talaga?!
shinomori_misao8: oh cmon
shinomori_misao8: <smiley ROFL>
tcia: ksi.. un.. mahinhin mxado
tcia: e si ate joelle.
tcia: palundag lundag pa un..

 hahahaha. kayo talaga. ganun ba ko kalala?

nga pala, finished my philo paper already. thanks lloyd. every week 'to, beware of your ate. hahaha. cheers  

hearing: all i have to give - backstreet boys (haha)

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jeepney escapades

shinomori_misao8 opened her eyes at 08:47 PM on January 15, 2006 and posted a favorite post.

this is my second post for today. see the other one below.

anyway, got this from an email. i HAVE to post this. hahaha.

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Mga Eksena sa Jeep 

Case # 1  "Aray, ano ba?"

Madalas na dialogue ng mga babaeng feeling commercial model ng shampoo kung ipatangay sa hangin ang buhok. Mga walang pakialam kahit na ang mga katabi nila ay hirap na hirap na sa pag-iwas sa paghampas nito sa mukha nila. Kaya ako kapag di na ako makapagpigil, hinihila ko na yung buhok, sabay sorry kunwari akala ko buhok ko yun. At kapag sinusumpong ako, kinakalabit ko na at sinasabihan kong hindi ako kumakain ng buhok. //minsan ako yung babaeng nagpapakain ng buhok. hahahaha. kasalanan ko bang mahangin?

Case # 2 "Blah, blah, blah...'

Mga taong feeling sila lang ang sakay na kung mag-usap ay dinig ng lahat ng pasahero. Nakakaaliw sila minsan lalo na't mahaba ang byahe at walang radyo yung jeep. Pampalipas oras din sila, minsan nga gusto ko ng sumabat dun sa kwentuhan nila lalo na kapag nakaka-relate ako. Pero kapag inaantok ako at di na makapagpigil tinitignan ko sila na parang gusto kong dukutin ang lalamunan nila. //minsan, kami yung maiingay sa jeep. i remember one time, yung lalaki sa tabi ni mara (na cute haha) napangiti sa sinabi ko. uy, kilig.)

Case # 3:  "Pakiabot lang po..."

Kapag napaupo ka ng medyo malapit-lapit sa driver, asahan mong magiging taga-abot ka ng bayad. Ok lang sana yun eh, hwag ka lang makaka-tyempo ng driver na may pagka-manyakis na nanadyang manghaplos ng kamay. O kaya naman ng driver na parang di pa ata nakakaalam na uso na ang deodorant. O kaya naman ng driver na mas malakas pang bumuga sa tambutso nya ang bunganga.
Syempre wala naman akong magawa kundi ang magtakip na lang ng ilong at umurong agad kapag medyo lumuwang. At meron namang mga pasaherong sobrang bait na hindi ka pa nakakapagsalita ay kinukuha na sa kamay mo ang bayad mo.
Meron din syempreng matatapang na kapag hindi mo nakuha agad yung bayad nila ay medyo itataas ang boses at may kasama pang ismid. Hay naku, pede ba wala akong kumisyon sa pag-abot ng bayad nyo ha. //karir ko 'to. haha.

Case # 4: "Makikiusog nga..."

Para sa mga kung umupo ay kala mo pang-dalawang tao ang binayaran. May mga babaeng kung umupo ay nakalihis, walang pakialam na yung katabi nya kalahating pwet na lang ang nakaupo. Meron din mga lalaking kung makaupo ay halos mangingimi kang tumingin sa kanya dahil sa laki ng pagkakabukaka.
Animo'y may kung anong pinoprotektahan sa pagitan ng kanyang mga hita.
Kapag ipit na ipit na ako, sinasabayan ko ang pag-preno ng mama sa pag-usog.

Pasensyahan na lang kung mapalakas. //ginagawa ko rin yun. at nabwibwiset ako sa mga hindi naurong. gademit, binayaran niyo ba yung buong jeep?

Case # 5: "Ooozzz..."

Wala namang masama kung matulog ka habang nasa byahe, pero sana iang walang dantayan at basagan ng bao o di kaya ay matuluan ng panis nyang laway. Kapag may katabi akong natutulog na, hinahayaan ko lang (syempre alangan namang pigilan ko) at kapag babagsak na ung ulo nya sa 'kin, bigla kong ibinababa balikat ko para magulantang sya.  Pero kapag cute ibang usapan na yan.
Itinataas ko pa balikat ko para  makahilig at ng makatulog sya ng maayos at ok lang na magka-untugan kami,  malay mo magpakilala pa sya, asa pa.

Case # 6: "Mama, para ho..."

May mga driver na di mo mapipigilang mapamura sa sobrang tagal bago huminto na halos kailanganin mo ng sumakay pabalik sa layo ng pinagbabaan sa 'yo.   Meron namang hihinto kahit na sa gitna ng kalsada mabawasan lang agad ang sakay nya. At meron ding halos mahalikan mo na yung katabi o kung minalas-malas ka ay mahuhulog ka pa dahil sa biglang pagpreno nya. May mga pasahero namang hindi pa nakuntento sa pagkalakas-lakas na pagsabi ng para at kumakatok pa sa bubong. Merong namang magbabayad kapag pababa na at may gana pang magalit kapag hindi agad naihinto ang sasakyan. At syempre merong mga nagmamadaling akala mo ay mauubusan ng lupa kung bumaba, kasehodang mabunggo at matapakan nyang lahat ng daraanan nya. Pero pamatay pa ring yung minsang may nakasakay akong mama na pagkalakas-lakas at paulit-ulit na sumisigaw ng "Bayad ho, bayad ho, bayad ho..." Syempre yung driver, kuntodo extend ng kamay nya. Nakatingin na lahat dun sa mama na kumakatok-katok pa sa bubong ng jeep. Sabay naalala nyang "Para" pala ang dapat nyang isinisigaw. Nyahaha...tawa ko ng tawa pagkababa nung mama!

At meron pa minsan na siguro kakapamili lang at kagagaling lang sa tawaran porsyon sa tiangge, imbes na "Mama, bayad oh!" ang nasabi ba naman ay " Mama, Pagbilan ho!" ay naku di ko alam kung tatawa ba ako ng malakas o hindi at baka ma offend ko cia! har har har

At may isa pah! Dahil sa sobrang pakikipagkwentuhan sa katabi, simula na ata ng sumakay siya eh dakdak na ng dakdak imbes na "Para" ang sabihin eh "BABAY!!" siguro ang nasa isip ng mahadera eh magbabay sa kasama niya pero sa driver niya nasabi! har har har! Kasi naman super daldakina!!! //haha! asar mga manong na 'di pumapara agad. kups.

Case # 7: "Love birds..."

Syempre pa, hindi mawawala ang mga mag-syotang kala mo may sariling mundo na  kung maglampungan ay parang mga pusang di mapakali. Libreng sine 'to, rated  18, kaya lang nakakabitin din lalo na kapag nauna kang bumaba sa kanila.  Meron tuloy mga lalaking 'nag-iinit' at biglang bibitaw ang kamay sa  pagkakahawak sa bakal para kunwari mapapasubsob sa katabi nila o kaya naman  bigla mong mararamdaman na yung siko nila nasa tagiliran mo na. Sarap sampalin ng mga ganung lalaki. Di naman sa nakikialam ako, pero wala namang inggitan...

Case # 8: "Estudyante blues..."

Maraming estudyante na nagbabasa ng libro sa loob ng jeep habang nasa biyahe. yung iba sa sobrang ganda ng binabasa ay nadadala sa kwento...'Yung nakasakay ko minsan na dalagita ay taimtim na nagbabasa ng "Noli Me Tangere". Hindi nya napansin na malapit na syang pumara at sa gulat na bababa na pala siya ay mahinhing sinabi sa driver "Paalam". Naku, tawa kami ng tawa sa kanya, pati nga sya ay natawa rin sa sinabi nya. //wala kayong mapapala sa pag-aaral sa jeep. hahaha.

3 critiqued.

sa wakas.

shinomori_misao8 opened her eyes at 12:10 AM on January 21, 2006.

eto na naman ako.

the feeling strikes again.

this tingly-weird feeling inside. YOU gave me butterflies. haha. game na ba 'to? eep, good luck. i know i'm already in the wanted list because of this. haha

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cursor: dami na namin tambay hours ni mayee. most of mine are daya. hahahaha. sheesh. 

    >>cursor buddy bidding: buddy ko si DJ! haha. swerte ko, ako pinakamababang bid. hahahhaa. ayaw niyo kasi eh. mabait naman si dj ah! lagi nga lang wala. (hahaha!)

ictus: malapit na kami makumpleto ni mara sa apostolate! sobra-sobra pa kami sa tambay hours at marami narin kami napasig. haha cool! let's do this. go lang ng go! hahahaha  

math: haha, i'd rather not divulge. anyone who wants to tutor me? haha

cs12: STILL haven't started doing the MP. and i swear, i WILL start doing it tomorrow. promise. talaga. sana. heehee. 

critique?

wahooweyahaha (wtf)

shinomori_misao8 opened her eyes at 02:27 PM on January 21, 2006 and posted a favorite post.

01.15.06 

i'll forever remember my horoscope for this day:
 
You're after someone who'll allow you to express yourself -- all your feelings, no matter how eccentric and unconventional they are. You'd better find them quickly, though, because if you try to spend time with the usual suspects now, it just won't work out. It might even get ugly -- and you know how you'd hate that. Hey, you've been feeling the need to break out of this rut for a good, long time. Here's your chance. Take it!.

oh c'mon. as if there are venues to take those "chances". YOU find ME someone new. haha.

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and i did remember it. at ngayon...

The Bottom Line

You'll find beauty in a very unusual place today. Take time to appreciate it.

Now how about sharing your secret with the rest of the world?

what secret? teehee.

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where is she (where is HE nalang para hindi parang tibo. hahaha)

I know you're out there baby
Somewhere . .
There's someone out there for me (I know there's somebody out there)
I know she's waiting so patiently
Can you tell her name (Won't somebody tell me her name)
This lifelong search is going to drive me insane (That's right)
How does she laugh, how does she cry
Whats the color of her eyes
Does she even realize, I'm here
Where is she, where is she, where is she
Where is this beautiful girl
Who is she, who is she
Who's going to complete my world
Where is she, where is she, where is she
Where is this beautiful girl
Who is she, who is she
Who's going to complete my world
Da da da da da
Where are you . . .

I'm staring out at the sky (I see you baby)
Praying he will walk in my life
Where is the man of my dreams (I'm right here) yeah yeah
I'll wait forever, how silly it seems
How does he laugh, how does he cry
Whats the color of his eyes
Does he even realize, I'm here
Where is he, where is he, where is he
Where is this beautiful guy
Who is he, who is he
Who's going to take me so high
Where is he, where is he, where is he
Where is this beautiful guy
Who is he, who is he
Who's going to take me so high Lalalaa(Where are you)

There's someone out there for me (There's someone out there for me)
I know she's waiting so patiently (so patiently)
Can you tell me her name (can you tell me his name)
This lifelong search is going to drive me insane; Thats right

How does he laugh, how does he cry
Whats the color of his eyes
Does he even realize, I'm here

Where is she, where is she, where is she
Where is this beautiful girl
Who is she, who is she
Who's going to complete my world

Where is he, where is he, where is he
Where is this beautiful guy
Who is he, who is he
Who's going to take me so high

Lalalaalalaa
I know you're out there
Lalalaalalaa

Where are you
I'm going to look all over the world baby
Because I know you're out there
I know it might sound crazy but I think I love you

Lalalaalalaa

Where are you

 

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Stickwitu - pussy cat dolls

I don't wanna go another day
So i'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody's breaking up
And throwing their love away
But i know i got a good thing right here
That's why i say (hey)

Nobody gon love me better
I must stick with you
Forever
Nobody gon take me higher
I must stick with you
You know how to 'preciate me
I must stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I must stick with you

I don't wanna go another day
So i'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride
In our private lives
Ain't nobody getting in between
I want you to know that you're the only one for me
And i say

Nobody gonna love me better
I must stick with you
Forever
Nobody gonna take me higher
I must stick with you
You know how to 'preciate me
I must stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I must stick with you

And now
Ain't nothing else i could need
And now
I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me
I got you
We'll be making love endlessly
I'm with you
Baby, you're with me

So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that's all that counts
So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that's why i say

Nobody gonna love me better
I must stick with you
Forever
Nobody gonna take me higher
I must stick with you
You know how to 'preciate me
I must stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I must stick with you

 

 

hearing: sa kanya - mymp
feeling: happpeeeeyyyy yet anxious

critique?

yey

shinomori_misao8 opened her eyes at 12:46 AM on January 22, 2006.

yahoo! the cursor acquaintance party was sooooooooo super mega kaduper fun. haha. a barrel of laughs. sobrang sobrang nakakatawa. sana kayanin naming apps ung whole process at sana makapasok kami

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EDIT:

wala lang. gusto ko lang mag-edit. hahahahaha.

 

cursor apps! kasama si kat. (l-r clockwise: kat, moe, len, ako, mayee, nikko) member na si kat ha. haha byte ni nikko. 

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MP! MP! MP! kailangan nang gawin. 

feeling: happpeeeeeyyyy

critique?

:)

shinomori_misao8 opened her eyes at 11:18 PM on January 23, 2006 and posted a favorite post.

saving grace. that's what you are. i hope you are aware of that. you're what i've been waiting and praying for (i hope). please do be him. i don't know if i'd be able to endure another heartbreak.

"go lang nang go!"

thanks.

yun nalang masasabi ko, thanks.

you saved me from this rut. sana nga lang totoo na 'to.

pero i've learned my lesson, don't worry. i'll always remember what my bunsoy said: "basta ate, iingatan mo yang puso mo ha, 'wag mo agad i-open up kapag hindi siya handang ibigay yun saýo..." and i will try. thanks. big time. :D

hearing: couldn't ask for more - edwin mccain
feeling: so happy

critique?

15%

shinomori_misao8 opened her eyes at 11:02 PM on January 28, 2006.

everything right now is just that much.

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walking after you.foo fighters

Tonight I’m tangled in my blanket of clouds
Dreaming aloud
Things just won’t do without you, matter of fact
I’m on your back, I’m on your back, I’m on your back

If you walk out on me, I’m walking after you
If you walk out on me, I’m walking after you

If you’d accept surrender, I’ll give up some more
Weren’t you adored
I cannot be without you, matter of fact
I’m on your back, I’m on your back, I’m on your back

If you walk out on me, I’m walking after you
If you walk out on me, I’m walking after you

Another heart is cracked in two, I’m on your back

I cannot be without you, matter of fact
I’m on your back, I’m on your back, I’m on your back

If you walk out on me, I’m walking after you
If you walk out on me, I’m walking after you
If you walk out on me, I’m walking after you

Another heart is cracked in two, I’m on your back

feeling: blah

critique?

yahoo

shinomori_misao8 opened her eyes at 07:03 PM on January 30, 2006.

and yes, natapos ko na ang mp.

 i feel so achieved. hahahaha. tapos na mp, tapos na paper sa philo... tapos na kaya ang mga problema? hmmm...

hearing: love of my life
feeling: quite anxious

critique?